Looking for someone special i mean a islamic wife

hi its me junaid, i am . a son ,A brother, A grand son , a nephew, a cousion, a friend. i am a partner, a student, a young boy,i am confident and scared, terrified and excited, i am loving and caring, and thoughtful,and hopeful, i am sick and tired. i am broken and whole. i am misunderstood,misguided, and mislead. i am hard working and determind. but a little scared on the outside,while i am dying on the inside. i listen to otherts who wont listen to me,,. i believe in passion, but not true love. I LOVE YOU AND PUSH YOU AWAY. i want you but not so close. i am everything and nothing all at once, and all i want is for you to LOVE ME .