looking for the one thing I don't have in life.

I am a 28 year old male to female transgender revert to Islam that has not yet has surgery. I have done quite a lot with my life so far and once I began my fight for Palestine durring a hunger strike in solidarity with raffa eventually I found Sunni Islam. I have already taken shahada going on almost a year ago. I have spent the last almost 2 decades studying religion and philosophy, I have traveled most of America, I have done everything I want to do with my life except find love and eventually adopt a few children in search of a home like I was as a kid.